surviving the fears i owned

"when the things gone wrong and all you have is anger..in an instant things will be forever mistake"

Once the words released it will never be yours..
been in a worst silent fight this weekend. almost died to leave alone without my baby. seems like water fading under the heat of the sun, Can't do anything but wait..wait..wait for the rain to save me.

I am about to give up the life i choose to live, I can't imagine myself not with my baby johan. I even decided to stay (with this fear to his dads attitude) just to take away the tears in my baby's eyes. I don't feel anything but pain. Phobia is embracing me. Bone is weaken by raging fears.

Am i being loved or what? I don't seek for love I guess. Just respect.

I'm cryin' out for help.