more about memory.. T,T

found this mail draft in my oldest email, my tears begun to fall. I missed my best friend. and six years becomes a history, my pain of losing her stays like fresh wound.
and every time she visits me in my dream, she smile and give me a hug. Maybe telling "hoy bja don't give up".
and the bja she used to call, a person who used to drop to dead laughing with her is the vianca now who loves to be with angst.

damn..help me forget about anger, help me cut away the mistake i kept worrying about.
move on. forward


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to: chimes_a1@yahoo.com; 4/12/04 3:29PM
subject: miss kita...
wen,

sana na ee mail p kita tulad ng dati..sana tulad pa rn ng dati n khit mgkatabi lng tau ng computer ng chachat p rn tau..kso feeling ko hindi lng miles ang layo natin s isat isa... billion bilion of light years pa.... hindi ko madefine ang nararamdamn ko...hindi ko malamn bkit kahit anong banggit nila ng katotohanan na lagi k lng dw anjan..hnd ko pa rin matnggap n ur totally gone...alam ko mas masaya jan..alam ko n ang selfish pg di ko pa natatanggap n ala k n s mundo...n masaya ka na..na hindi n kita nayayakap o makakarga o matatapon o mahahawakan o makakaway o mkkcgawan o mkk usap o makakantahan o m22g2gan ng gitara o makakasayaw ng larosso o mkksama s review kpg my exam o mkksabay sa isang trip o mkksabay mag lunch mn lng o malilibre s jobee o graceland o maglaro s toms world... bat ba ang lungkot ng ganito. ilang taon k b sis umalis?? db 2 yrs na?? bkt parang kahapon lng...bkit parang knina lng???? ang dami ko ng tanong..bkit d ko masagot??

sana kita tau sa cross road..hntayini mo ako jan ha?? i mssed you a lot...

i love you khit d k naniniwala sakin...

bja

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