I stop the world and melt alone

I sleep all day, over. damn.its the worst thing a beautiful creature on earth would do. but it's so relaxing to lie down in my bed dreaming, wondering and drowning my self into the milkyway of worries and happiness.

Indeed, i wasted my one day salary [under] pay. In a tick of that little long hand, takes my mind into places and time. Where universe collide. No bounderies. No Speed Limit.Going nowhere but here.

This melt down helped me take my little step, to huge hope for better days.
EMOTERA

Fete Dela Musique 2009 - Line Up

POP / ALTERNATIVE
(Metrowalk Center Plaza)

Stonefree
Mayonnaise
Danita Paner
Alamid
Mike's Apartment
December Avenue
Armas
Gasulina
Chilities
Shift
Itchyworms
Circa
Uries Attack
The Camerawalls
The Out Of Body Special
Manila Bus
The Charmes
Salamin
Enemies of Saturn
Ephesus
Purple Chickens
Callalily
Alibata
Chubibo
The Bernadettes
Corporate Lo-fi
Dice And K-9
Burning Bush

JAZZ

Yosha
Sinosikat
Brass Munkey
Elea And Jazz
Jazzin' Project

ROCK/METAL
(Metrowalk Parking Lot)

Badburn
Witchtreesymbol
Final Vow
Hilera
Piledriver
Eternal Now
Fastpitch
The Ambassadors
The Youth
Intolerant
cog
Valley Of Chrome
sin
starscream
typecast
ginrum and truth
katoliko
ixion
april morning skies
bloodshedd
blue boy bites back
campbell
oremuz
angulo
maryzark
imbue no kudos

WORLD/FOLK
(Aruba)

syalam
bandang malaya
brigada
peryodiko
kadangyan
republika de lata
the chonkeys

ELECTRONICA/GOTH/NEW WAVE
(Metro Phi Bar)

switch
the edralins
turbo goth
taken by cars
skies of ember
tether
funeral frost
scarlet tears
the lowtechs
pedicab
us-2, evil-0
funcity boys

REGGAE/SKA
(Love To Laugh)

Tropical depression
reggae mistress
juan pablo dream
skabeche
sagor
coffee break island
Bambu Spliff
Pink Cow
Jeepney joyride
neighbors
tango bitoy
peace pipe
collie herb

CLASSICAL
(Starbucks)

BLUES
(Elbow Room)

snake charmer
blue jean junkies
joniver
bembol rockers
nicole and carlo
playphonics
house of raven
dr. crowley
lady high

HIP-HOP/RNB
(Mugen Bar)

Pamilya di magiba
mike swift / j.hon
cd automatic
krazykyle
sinag
people's future
ill-j

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Worry Not

Feb 18 '09

Just when you know you wanted to handle things plain and simple,
the situation and people correlates around you seems complicate everything..
while you sought to make others happy then abruptly you hurt them maybe involuntary
but still you’ve created pain.

Don’t worry the bottom line is because you care


Unexpectedly it turns out the other way around.
Unexpectedly you made a mistake.

Don’t worry we’re all not perfect.


Just when you assume you already gave your finest shot
But still not enough
And so you feel worned out, has nothing to give.
Has nothing to prove, a total loser.

Don’t worry, God has a plan

Everything has reason, still try.
And when you anticipated being just real
But afterward you found out it’s a big piece of phony shit.
Feeling intimidated, feeling gibberish.

Worry Not, you’re worthy enough to be needed by others.

Fotget the Missing

Do you ever think about me..
Do you ever cry yourself to sleep...
Are you calling out my name?
Ohh.. Forget Him
Forget his name, Forget his face
Forget his kiss
His warm embrace
Forget the love that you once knew
Remember he has some one new
Forget him when they played your song
Remember when you cried all night long
Forget how close you are together
Remember he has chosen her
Forget how you memorized his walk
Forget the things he used to say
Remember he has gone away
Forget his love forget his grin
Forget the dimples on his chin
Forget the way he held you tight
Remember he's with her tonight
Forget the time went so fast
Forget the love that moved its past
Forget he said he'd leave you never
Remember he's gone forever

satin thin patience

Before I jump off the bus heading to Cubao Araneta Terminal, my head spinning into some circumstances. I might find my life so miserable and painful for the long year of 2008 but all hope wasn't gone with the wind. I might take those struggles by running the circles and for sure no regret.

It's kinda hard for me to forgive people who hurt me this much. Giving me life this year soaked in my anger, marinated with pain and vengeance because of them. And, i swear I'm not over it. And if those spices makes me feel normal and complete, still i wanna take my step to something that might change what I used to want.

This crisps and the juice of my existence is all I can offer, the delight belongs to people i love the most. I might hated you and still finding my readiness to forgive, Nor loved you so please savor the sweetness that life can offer.

The need to take away all the angst and take 'em off me.

"Patience, come near me coz i been missing you. I might need yah anytime. I might change my name for yah. I might soak myself in stop my world for yah. For now, please just wait."

surviving the fears i owned

"when the things gone wrong and all you have is anger..in an instant things will be forever mistake"

Once the words released it will never be yours..
been in a worst silent fight this weekend. almost died to leave alone without my baby. seems like water fading under the heat of the sun, Can't do anything but wait..wait..wait for the rain to save me.

I am about to give up the life i choose to live, I can't imagine myself not with my baby johan. I even decided to stay (with this fear to his dads attitude) just to take away the tears in my baby's eyes. I don't feel anything but pain. Phobia is embracing me. Bone is weaken by raging fears.

Am i being loved or what? I don't seek for love I guess. Just respect.

I'm cryin' out for help.

365 days counting in US Autoparts

The 365 days of being here in US Autoparts is a long struggle,proving that i am in a fight and "giving up" has no room as long as I exist.

From Being a subdued Senior Data Analyst to Assistant Analyst, IR harvest and memo to victor accomplishment, 5% Self Esteem to 100% trust from big boss, from bloody nightmare to bright Morning Light.

I am not so sure if I owned the so called fulfillment but I guess I have a lot to give and still sharing.

Thanks to Big Boss for entrusting me these team, these category. For helping me win the confidence.